NOTE: my thoughts often come out all over the place, writing these posts will get better over time, bear with me if they are a bit disorganized :)
I came back to New York City over the weekend. I had such a productive week in Boston, totally redoing this website and achieving all the goals I set for myself in the beginning of last week. As I am transitioning back to my life here in New York, the most important thing to me is maintaining this creative and ambitious momentum that I have going. For the first time in a long time, I have tapped back into the things that make me happy. The past 5 months of living in New York I have been so focused on adjusting to life here that I have put a lot of other things aside. I have spent a lot of time traveling and getting back to my roots this summer. It has allowed me to achieve a peace of mind and to process all of the things going on in my life. I have also had the time to realize what makes me happy, what I do and don't want in life, and the direction I want my future to go in. We get so wrapped up in our day to day activities, we often forget to take the time to take a step back and actually analyze everything going on in our lives, especially living in New York where life moves VERY quickly. I also haven't had any structure in my life, which makes it hard to stay focused at times. So, one of the biggest goals I have now set for myself is to stay focused, and to figure out ways to do that (which I will share in the future). One thing that for sure has made a big difference is to get GOOD SLEEP AT NIGHT. I also have stopped going out so much, because that is a huge distraction.
I turned 25 back in June, and I honestly have felt a big mental shift ever since. A lot of things in my life have become much clearer. Traveling to Puerto Rico was the beginning of gaining clarity. If you ever feel like you are in a fog, stressed, or off-track, I HIGHLY recommend traveling alone somewhere. It was one of the best things I have ever done.
Sunday's are very special to me. When I was a kid, they were my least favorite day of the week because of course it meant going back to school the next day. Now, I adore Sunday's. Not only are they my day to treat myself (usually with pancakes), but it's a time of reflection for me. My routine is to explore a new restaurant, and then go for a long walk around the city. Lately, I have been listening to podcasts, which have made a big impact in my life. One of my favorites is the Model Health Show by Shawn Stevenson. I am going to start writing posts on what I learn because it's so helpful.
While walking around New York yesterday (it was a Sunday), my mind had so many thoughts spinning around it from what I have learned about myself in the past week. The podcast I was listening to was speaking about momentum and how to maintain it. It inspired me to write this post and share all these thoughts I am speaking about. Writing these blog posts has sparked something deep inside me. Writing out my thoughts for the world to read brings me some sense of purpose. We need purpose in life to feel happy.
My brain is very active and I am constantly learning new things. I love to learn and to to explore, and I want to share that. I have always wanted to positively influence people, but never really knew how. I DON'T want to work for anyone else. I want to be my OWN BOSS. In order to do that, I need to create my own brand, and a way to make money off of it. I went to school for business, and have always dreamed of being an entrepreneur. I don't currently have a steady job or source of income (which is another big topic I need to write about). One thing I have learned is the importance of freedom, and the opportunity it gives you to learn about yourself. If there is one thing I know, I don't want to waste my time doing ANYTHING that isn't helping me, in my career and in my personal life. Which is one of the reasons I haven't gotten a steady job here in New York. I am so afraid it would totally disrupt my focus on building my future as a model (& now blogger?!)
So much time is spent in life figuring out what we want to do..who we want to be..what our purpose is. I think I have really started to capitalize on the things that bring me the most joy in life, and now I just need to figure out how to make it a career. This is just the beginning.
Hope you all enjoyed your Monday. More #meaningfulmonday posts to come!
Below are a couple photos I took on my walk yesterday through the 9/11 Memorial.